Is the one is what I want?

I've been thinking a lot. Once in a while, it crosses my mind.

About what?

About the things I'm doing, the things I'm capable of doing, the things I love doing.

This needs courage. I need courage.

Am I happy doing what I'm doing? Am I really?

Or I tried to. At least.

But don't get me wrong.

I'm blessed. I really am.

I have everything I've ever wanted.

The route I'm taking.

Is it what I really wanted?

Will I be happy with it?

Since I'll be facing it more than anything for the rest of my lives. 

Yet I couldn't be sure of it.

It have not even started and I'm here now already doubting myself.

Deep down, I've actually found the one.

The one that could make me smile even though it's tiring.

Yes, I know both will be just as tiring.

But at least, I would really enjoyed being tired with the one.

However, I could not bare to leave everything behind.

Though I know nothing is a waste.

Just a lesson learnt.

The thought of it sometimes scares me but it does cheer me too.

And same goes to the one.

There are obligations I got to look up to.

Certainly, I will not be that person again.

No more 'halfway journey'.

It's either Route A or Route B.

But nope, I'm not going to choose.

At least for now.

Going to be a little lot greedier but much more exhausted.

So both choices I shall.

I'm writing myself something.

Something to remind me when I starts to have doubts again.

To read again and to ask myself.

Is the one is what I want?

Signing off,

Mother's Day│Black Kettle

Thought of making this post a sentimental post of how precious my mom is to me but nahhh, this post will basically be a simple post about Mother's Day dinner together with the family. (except that it's not whole cause of not having sister around again on this year's Mother's Day)   

FYI, Mother's Day always fall on a Sunday, just in case you don't know. 

Boyfriend and I would like to treat my mom for dinner however, bf's family usually have family night every Sunday so we was thinking not to do it on Sunday since my side of the family was okay with any days. 

So yeah, we did it on Saturday night, the day before Mother's Day. Heh

It's a pretty simple evening with my mom and my mom. Hah Dad decided to be a mom himself too on that night cause he sometimes did what normally a mother would do. (which is Housework) Hehe

We had our short dinner and our sweet little after-dinner-dessert-session at

Black Kettle @ 105, Beach Street, Georgetown 10200, Penang

Soft Shell Crab Burger

River Prawn Spaghetti Aglio Olio

Spaghetti Green Curry Lamb

We ordered three dishes to share cause four of us are all small eaters.

Definitely couldn't finish if we add another extra one.

and we're expecting desserts later on so not too much for dinner session.

Desserts time

Black and White
(I presume it's chocolate cheese cake)

Hot Cappuccino 

Foreign Guinness Stout

Scones with Strawberry Jams

Dinner and Dessert Session was on both of us.

My Bae and me

Thanks babe on behalf of my mom. Heh

That's all happened on Saturday evening, not the real day for Mother's Day.

So on the real Mother's Day, I decided to bake something she would love to eat. Of course I did asked her what she wanted and yes, she requested for her all-time favorite (as of now) Blueberry Cheese Cake.

On Sunday morning which is Mother's Day, just after mom left for work, I started baking.

Had some help from boyfie too like washing some dishes etc. Heh Tq.

Prepping and baking all done in about 2 hours time.

(Watching movie + enjoying the baking process)

Then it's the oven operating time. 

Cheese cake out from oven and let it cool down before I could top it up with mom's fav blueberry filling.

It's a simple and delicious recipe I'm using.

(Ps, not the same recipe I used to bake/blog it before)

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MOM !

Thank you, mom for everything.

I Love You.

Kisses,