May Discovery

Hello, welcoming the month of June.

May had been great!

Discovered something that really makes me... what do I call it? Happy perhaps. All smiles whenever I think about it. Like a girl in love. Hah

Hence, the supposed to be a busy month of May, I get a little distracted on my obsession for BAKING again.

Not sure 'again' is the correct word but this obsession never really stops before. It still frequently appeared in my mind whatever, whenever or wherever I go. ;)

Then why do I say I discovered it during the month of May?

Here's why.

I did mentioned that I work part time in a pastry shop starting April right?

FYI, my last day of work at Shervone Cakes & Pastry are on 13 May 2016. So I approximately worked there for about one and a half month only.

To be honest, I've learned quite a lot of stuffs while working there. Gonna miss baking there though.

If I'm not wrong, I said before that this work might either make me love baking even more or the opposite, hate it! Oh yes, it really did project much more obvious traits in me than ever and guess what?
LOVE or HATE? (obviously you know the answer already)

A definite LOVE!

Anyways, most of the time when I was working, all I do was baking, baking, a bit of decorating and more baking.

This is where I started to get really attracted to decorating cakes and getting creative ideas of beautiful cakes in my mind. Inspirations came flow in as if I just break into a beehive. Haha

Plus, I realized that in baking industry, I don't think I could work for someone else because it really limits your own creative ideas. Especially when decorating cakes cause you'll need to follow orders as in what you need to do and what you cannot do. (I don't mean the customers though)

Let's make an assumption, if I work for myself and I don't like using fondant in deco (nobody eats it anyway), then I could find better alternatives like modelling chocolate. (Nobody will ever say no to chocolate right?) But you cannot say NO if your boss say you gotta use fondant right? Of course the consequence is that the modelling chocolate will be way more expensive than fondant which is purely sugar.

Now I know why there's so many homemade cakes out there. You can only really enjoy the baking and decorating process if you work on your own.
CHEERS to own creativity, flowing inspirations, no limitations etc.

By the way, do you know how keen I can be towards the addiction to bakery? Ask the boyfriend to see how crazy I am. Heh

Or I'll just tell you la.

For example, when my boyfriend and I go dating and we do some shopping, I rarely go to any shops/boutiques selling apparels, cosmetics or even the heels/shoes like a normal lady would go to. Besides, I'll go for bakery shops, Daiso, Tesco etc. all just to shop for baking ingredients and baking utensils. I did it as if it's like my collections. My only limitation is there's no space for me to put all my collections. (Dad would be furious) All in all, I'm getting addicted to it I admit. ;)

Also, I did went into shops like SenQ, Harvey Norman, SEC, Ban Hin Bee (electrical shops) etc to just have a look at all the electric mixers and ovens. I need to own one electric mixer like seriously. I currently owning a hand mixer only so there's kind of a limit to the pastries I could bake. My dream is obviously to own a Kitchen Aid but it's really expensive for me right now. Unless, you plan to surprise me one. Haha Anyways, I think I'll go with the cheaper ones first. 

On top of all that addiction, I started stalking/following lots of beautiful cakes' accounts in Instagram and even Snapchat.

Nah, proof ! Hahaha

In conclusion, I know you geddit already, I'm really quite into this. Haha

That idea even passes my mind. It is to start selling beautiful and delicious cakes after I done experimenting the best kind of recipes. Just to fill in the past time, of course.

Will you be interested to buy cakes that costs not little (maybe ranges about RM 30 - RM 100) from an amateur baker? Not cheap you know all the ingredients plus the effort of experimenting the best one before selling it. Of course it would be beautifully decorated. Heh

But first, I gotta really remain focus on my coming ACCA P7 exam on 6 June, which is just only a few days away. Oh gosh.

And yes on April, I did said that I did not even start revising yet. (The-last-minute-kind) Obviously, I'm not in the same condition la now abo ma die liao.

I'm actually quite prepared for it already but still.... not really ready to face it yet but I think it's pretty normal cause nobody will be entirely well prepared and ready before an exam. Unless you know what's the questions are already Hah.

So best of luck to me and I'll see you again after this terrifying exam.

Toodles,

Is the one is what I want?

I've been thinking a lot. Once in a while, it crosses my mind.

About what?

About the things I'm doing, the things I'm capable of doing, the things I love doing.

This needs courage. I need courage.

Am I happy doing what I'm doing? Am I really?

Or I tried to. At least.

But don't get me wrong.

I'm blessed. I really am.

I have everything I've ever wanted.

The route I'm taking.

Is it what I really wanted?

Will I be happy with it?

Since I'll be facing it more than anything for the rest of my lives. 

Yet I couldn't be sure of it.

It have not even started and I'm here now already doubting myself.

Deep down, I've actually found the one.

The one that could make me smile even though it's tiring.

Yes, I know both will be just as tiring.

But at least, I would really enjoyed being tired with the one.

However, I could not bare to leave everything behind.

Though I know nothing is a waste.

Just a lesson learnt.

The thought of it sometimes scares me but it does cheer me too.

And same goes to the one.

There are obligations I got to look up to.

Certainly, I will not be that person again.

No more 'halfway journey'.

It's either Route A or Route B.

But nope, I'm not going to choose.

At least for now.

Going to be a little lot greedier but much more exhausted.

So both choices I shall.

I'm writing myself something.

Something to remind me when I starts to have doubts again.

To read again and to ask myself.

Is the one is what I want?

Signing off,

10 Successful Traits

As usual, anything useful that mom overheard from the radio, she would share with us during family dinner time. So here I am sharing with you guys too. Heh but forgive me, I don't remembered all very clearly cause the information is mainly in Mandarin and apparently, my Mandarin is quite bad. 

If I'm not wrong, she heard it from 988 FM one morning. 

It's something about which traits you do/have that describe yourself as rather a more successful person or less. If you have more than 5 or 6 of these traits, then your chances to be a successful person is higher. Or I think she meant, the percentage you do/think like a successful person is probably higher.

There are actually about 13 traits given by the radio announcer/DJ but I remembered 10 traits only. Sorry hehe

1) Read a lot. As in useful educational books, articles, magazines but I don't mean comics or novels. You will always learn something new from reading. That's a guarantee I can give you. Anyways, never stop learning right?

2) Waking up early every morning. Make it a habit or either discipline yourself to do it. About 8 am every morning I suppose.

3) Exercise consistently. Either few times a week or even better everyday for a short spam of time, maybe half an hour or so.

4) Not easy to be influenced by negativity. Dare to denied when approached by something which appeared to be attractive but unhealthy. Like drugs, gambling, etc.

5) Mixing and sharing thoughts with successful people. I don't mean unsuccessful people cannot be mix around but successful people tend to give more knowledgeable advises. So, make more friends and grow your circle.

6) Be kind. Treat people like how you want others to treat you.

7) Help people in need. Charity, donation or even anyone around you.

8) Have multiple source of income. You may work freelance or full time. Either way of earning money would do. Perhaps investing your money too.

9) Flashing back all the things that you do for the day. To be reminded of the things you learn the entire day so you would keep it in store in your mind.

10) Able to accept feedback/criticisms from others. Enable yourself to know and learn from your own mistakes. Be it positive or negative, learn to accept, interpret and make good use of the feedback.  

So how many did you scored? or how many did you actually apply in your daily life?

Perhaps I shall do one short random post to recall my entire month just for the sake of traits no. 9 even though it is referring to everyday routine. Heh

Every month routine should be fine also la. Oh wells ~

Till then.

Loves,

2016 Resolution

You know what?

I don't usually do resolution kind of stuff. If it could help in achieving something I wish for, like maybe giving me the commitment, determination or motivation to make it work then why not?

I have a few in my mind for quite a long time already. Yet, I know one of it I couldn't make it happen. Not that I can-not, it's just that I am missing that determination. (Yeah, I think that's what I'm lacking) *referring to the first resolution*

I'd always knew that I have this really bad habit that I wanted to remove (if there's a delete button, I would do anything to have that, I'm serious) 

Okay, what bad habit that I would want it gone so badly? You know there's a term in Hokkien called "Wu Tao Boh Bui" (Direct translation : got Head no Tail) In simple terms, it means that when you start doing something, you do but it is always incomplete. (Perhaps this is the reason I'm so afraid of making resolutions)

Just found out the correct term for this phrase. It's actually a mandarin idiom.

In Pinyin, it is called 'yǒu shǐ wú zhōng'

In English : to start but not finish (idiom); to fail to carry things through lack of sticking power; short attention span

The Piano

So one of my resolution for nearly like every year is playing the Piano smoothly. I'm having this reso since I realizes I love playing piano which is like what, a dozen years already? Hah

Yet, I still haven't master the skills up until now. That's why I said I have that bad habit, always doing things incomplete. Sigh... 

Though I've finally learn how to read a little of the piano chords but I guess I've forgotten most of it already. 

I'm not too sure whether I'm even gonna make this as my resolution or not. Oh well, let me continue the others first 

The Studies

If you'd read my Dayre (another type of social media which is like a blogging platform), you should probably know that I'd failed two of the optional professional level papers in ACCA (P6 and P7). 

It's my first time failing an ACCA paper. So, what's my feeling? Obviously, I'm not happy.

You know, one thing about me that I think it's maybe a good thing or maybe its not. I'm quite a happy-go-lucky-type-of-person. The good thing is I'm mostly happy and usually think positively about most things while the not-so-good about this is sometimes I'm over-optimistic and I guess people tend to find you fake (they would think like how can someone still be happy after ....) 

Perhaps I'm just a bit good at getting my mind away off things or maybe think of the good side of it. 

So yes, I'm not happy for a moment but later on, my mind starts thinking... (Let you know how do I get over it so quickly in this case) Mind was talking to myself.

"It had already happen. Nothing I could do to reverse my mistakes right? 

What did I do wrong actually? Gotta find out.

Eh, cannot compare to others! Want compare? Compare to the previous me to improve. 

Perhaps this is not my field after all. Should I just quit?
Oh yea, I remember a quote which is related to failure. "Failure only happens when you quit"

I've already come till this far, no I cannot quit.

Gosh, I gotta waste more time for studying again. Bored of studying already but mom once said, never stop learning. Learning is simply a gain. Okay, it means in the future, I'll still keep on continue to learn which is equivalent to studying too. So fine, studying is not a waste of time.

(Actually I think a lot more in order to make my mind turn into positive thought)"

It's not that simple. You can actually see from there that my mind starts thinking of some negative thoughts before it turns into positive ones. What I do to switch it is to find a reason or excuses like some motivational quotes, experiences or advises from anyone or anything you could think of. (That's how my love ones indirectly supported me)

That's why I said before, I think a lot, like literally. Heh (sorry for the long-winded though)

I know you must be thinking, 'Yeah yeah we geddit already. You very positive. Hahha'

Anyways, this is a resolution post so this is another resolution of mine for 2016. To graduate and be an ACCA Affiliate.

"Failure doesn't mean you are a failure, it just means you haven't succeeded yet." 

The Passion

In baking? In auditing? In blogging?

Until this day, I'm still searching for that passion that could make me happy, that's the most important right? (Live with no regrets)

For me, a passion is something I look forward to every single morning when I opened my eyes. 

Is it so hard to look for your own passion? 

Of course, there are so many things besides those three. I want myself to look further, further than my eyes could see. 

Can travelling helps? Reading more helps? Or sometimes what you really need is Luck (Opportunities)?

I'm always finding, thinking and yes, I hope 2016 will be the year I can finally aim for something to grasp on.

The Career

2016 will be mostly about these type of things okay? Hah What do I call these type of things?

'The Approach of Being an Adult' maybe?

I'm in my twenties already ma so of course gotta prepare to earn my own *kaching kaching*

Some of you may be wondering that aren't passion and career nearly the same thing?

Yeah, I wish I wish I wish, it's the same thing!

Maybe it shall also be one of my resolution? Heh (So many maybe's)

Okay let's be more realistic here. If that really happens, it would be my dream come true already, not just any resolution achieved. Also, provided that I'd found my passion already.

Though someday, I shall and I will do my best to achieve it.

"My career is my passion. My passion is my career."

Wah, damn nice weyhh.

Okay, back to the more achievable ones first.

In 2016, I want to be either employed or self-employed. Whichever that could get my bank a regular cash inflow and more importantly, gain knowledgeable experience.

If employed, please be the company I've been dreaming to work for.

If self-employed, please be the business I've been passionate enough to fight for. 

-END-

You must be thinking, 'Like finally, this entry is ending.' Hahah

So far, I have 4 already right? Yeah, the Fantastic FOUR!

Let me put these resolutions in my mind for 2016 first. One cannot be too greedy, aye?

OkThxBye

Sincerely,

Motivator #1

To accomplish great things, 
we must not only act but also dream,
not only plan, 
but also believe.